I had a Japan post halfway done and decided to scrap it. I guess it really will be just in my head, preserved forever in my thoughts, as how I first intended it. I will talk about it if people asked, but to this day, the three people who went with me, and three other people, knew just how I felt and how things went when I was in Japan and how the concert went, and I'm fine with that.
But JUMP was awesome, and I cried on the plane home and was exhausted. And maybe drooled a bit when I slept. J and I were left by our original flight and her card couldn't book the two of us back home on the next immediate flight so I had to wait 7 hrs for the last flight of the day, and that was how I was broke for the next few months because I was paying my Dad XD Japan was beautiful, so beautiful, and I am sad that I didn't get to explore that much, but there's always next time.
JUMP was so, so, so awesome.
I'm also hired, and I started yesterday. I don't know for sure if it will be a job I will be good at. I like it so far. I loved my former company, but it lacked a lot of things. I think this new job will be a challenge. I am ready for it. Yay!
Fandom feels out of the way first: HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHO! <3
I've been debating a bit with myself if it's really worth mentioning. I'm not looking for attention. I just feel like saying it. I still love Arashi. I don't think I will ever stop loving them. I owe a lot to them, in a way. But I can say for sure that they're not my top group right now. I don't know if I'm just saying this because I saw JUMP live first. Who knows, maybe in five years I'll be saying Sexy Zone is my top group. I just felt like laying it out here because it's how I feel right now. I love JUMP ^^ I'm glad I got to know them, I'm glad I decided to support them, and I'm so proud of them. Just as how proud I am of Arashi and of being their fan.
The Johnny's groups that I follow have grown a LOT since I became an Arashi fan. I still love them all. It's just that I've never done the things I've done with JUMP to any of those other groups and idk.. it feels nice? To know that I've supported a group the way I've been wanting to for years now. You know, buying their album, going to concerts, waving an uchiwa. I used to think seeing our idols were impossible unless I live in Japan.
JUMP is forever going to be connected to having my dream of visiting Japan come true. I know in the future, when I'm not in fandom anymore, when I think of my dream coming true, I will always remember that JUMP was part of it. And that just feels so great.
And Daiki, Keito, and Yuto waved at me. I was carrying Inoo and Yabu uchiwas and I didn't get a wave at all from my two favorites but oh well. There's always this year. I'm planning on going again, and this time, I'm going to do it right.
Real life, well. I miss my old colleagues. Not in the way that I really want to see them or go out of the way to visit the office just to see them, no. You know that feeling of missing someone or something simply because you've been seeing it everyday for such a long time that it feels really weird to suddenly not be seeing it anymore? There aren't really deep, emotional ~feelings~, just that it feels weird. That's how I miss them. I'd love to see them again soon, though. With all the new faces and new atmosphere and new information that I'm taking in, it would be nice to see familiar faces and feel comfortable talking again.
It only takes me 30mins to get to my new office from home. It also took me 30mins to get to my previous office but I was living at a boarding house and that wasn't home. So far I'm loving it. We will have another assesment test by the end of the first leg of training by next week. I hope I pass this. I don't want to go through another job hunting process. SO TIRING.
Now I'm off to watch FRIENDS and try to read my new employee manual and fill out a million and one forms for HR.